the place where i'll spend my life at...

cuba teka kat mana tempat ni???

dah2... jangan sampai runsing2 pening kepala pikir mana tempat ni....meh aku nak bocor rahsia sket..... haaa... untuk pengetahuan korang, ini la bench aku wat lab work. heeee.... ^___^  comel tak? comel tak?? (entah apa yang dikatakan comel pon tak tahu la...ceissss!) mungkin agak serabut sket kot... hehehe~  kat tempat ni la nanti aku akan menghabiskan sisa2 hidup aku selama 2 tahun (insyaallah).. demi menghabeskan pengajian master aku... hopefully la dapat habeskan and tak give up half way je... kena kuat semangat!! ingat, nak sambung master bukan senang. tambah2 lagi kalo nak wat research ni... "always expect the unexpected!" :)


erm, actually tak tahu nak update apa.. so, entry kali ni mungkin agak pointless. huhuhu... ape2 jela kan... yang penting update! kan???? :))



p/s: still tak jumpa lagi layout yang berkenan di hati...huuu~

semakin hari semakin malas...

aku pon tak tau la.. entah nape semakin hari aku rasa semakin malas nak update blog ni... padahal banyak je benda yang berlaku... selalunya tergedik2 nak update... tapi skang, makin malas... rasa macam makin bosan... *sigh* jeles betol tengok blogger yang boleh update entry tiap2 hari.... respek ah! ermmm... mungkin aku patot tukar layout blog ni kot... biar berwajah baru...nampak fresh sket... baru bersemangat nak mengupdate...kan...?? tapi masalahnya aku tak reti la nak decorate blog ni... nak edit-mengedit gambo.... i need some help! anyone...?????

entry pendek je...

perghhh..... dah dekat 1 week kot tak update blog ni. actually ada banyak je citer yang nak diceritakan dalam blog ni... macam2 sangat! tapi wat masa sekarang takde masa nak update. sangat busy with my lab work. arghhh!! dulu masa projek tak start lagi, boleh la dok online 9-5pm. layan facebook, mengupdate blog, blogwalking, ym... tapi skarang ni bukan stakat nak online, nak bukak laptop pon dah takde masa... bila balik rumah dah kepenatan, malas nak bukak laptop. lepak2 layan tv, pastu terus tido. esok pegi lab. busy buat keje. balik umah penat dan tido. begitulah aktivitiku 2-3 minggu ni... haihhhh... nak meronggeng pon tak sempat. banyak lagi movie nak kena catch up ni... huhuhu... eh2.. stop cni dlu la. kata entry pendek kan. tak leh wat panjang2... iye2.. aku tau korang rindu kat entry2 aku kan... (wakakaka! perasan seyhhhh!!!) sabar2... nanti dah free sket aku update lagi keh...aku pon rindu nak melawat blog korang... heeeeee :DD

only the strong one will success....

hola dan bertemu lagiiii!!! selama 2-3 ari ni tak sempat nak mengupdate blog or blogwalking. sangat bz.. bukan stakat bz meronggeng, tapi sebab untuk 2 ari ni aku kena attend workshop for postgrad student. under bio school usm.

dapat pen free, gula2 tak free

bila dengar je WAJIB pergi workshop ni, masing2 macam, "omaigod! sure bosan gile nanti... entah apa la lecturer2 tu nak membebel...bla..bla.." tapi rupa2nya, takde la bosan sangat... mebe sebab lecturer yang bagi talk ni pandai attract and mengayat kitorang kot. and the best part was, makan-time!!! perghh... memang terbaekkk! yang ni memang sangat best + superb kot.. makan free weiii... 3x kot.. breakfast, lunch and hi-tea... dah la makanan sedap... free plak tu... tak sia2 datang workshop ni.. hahaha...


ok2, mari betolkan niat dulu sebelum terlambat. bersempena dengan nama workshop ni,"conducting systematic and quality research", so the objective is to provide the new postgrad students on how to start our project effectively and efficiently. the speakers were talking about "why are u interested in doing masters/phd?", "what does it takes to be a postgrad student", "time management", "originality of a project", "ethics", "how to write a good proposal, papers, etc..", "roles of supervisor" and bla..bla..


kinda boring kan? well, it was! hohoho.. actually, not really.. i'm interested in this... but... feel like, "damn, why don't they organize this workshop earlier???" rasa macam no point gak attend workshop ni mula2 sebab rasa macam segala2 nya dah terlambat.. T_T wuwuwuwu... lepas attend workshop ni, macam2 yang aku pikir.. "layak ke aku nak sambung belajar?", "betol ke apa yang aku pilih ni?", "mampu ke aku?"... rasa cam, semua apa yang speakers cakap tu, betol2 kena sebijik2 kat aku. memang betol pon apa yang diorang cakap tu. based on experience diorang kan. tapi, tula... sekarang aku dah rasa macam, 50-50... nak ke tak nak? teruskan atau tidak?


i know, i shouldn't have this kind of feelings.bila diri sendiri dah choose path ni, kena teruskan la jugakkan no matter what. orang lain hanya bley bagi semangat, kritik, simpati and segala2nya. tapi kita yang menentukan nasib diri kita. be strong girl!!

remember,

DOING RESEARCH IS NOT EASY!!!

p/s: i'm trying my hardest....... pray 4 my success.....

entry pasal ronggeng. sila reka tajuk sendiri.

petang tadi dapat call from yat:

"akak, ada kat mana? tengah watpe? free tak petang ni? jom gi BJ. kita ronggeng.. main boling ke, tengok wayang ke, karok ke... nak tak?"

kebetulan memang arini aku kebosanan je kat umah. takde pape aktiviti nak wat selain tido and layan movie. aku pon on jela. dah lama tak main boling kot. dalam masa tak sampai 30min kitorang bersiap. memang tak plan kan. tapi sempat je. takyah nak make-up. memang dah cantik.natural beauty. ngehehehe... ingatkan kak raha (my senior) ada skali. tapi malangnya, dia dah nak kena balik KL. sok keje. tak sempat nak ronggeng sama2. so, beliau hanya sempat mengpost adiah nya kepada ku saja.. yeyyy!!!


sesampai kat BJ kul 3 lebey. tempat pertama yang dituju mestilah pusat boling. gian dah nak main.kitorang main 2 game sorang. wahhhh... game kali ni memang lucky! bley kata high achievement gak.. dapat pecah rekod peribadi. berapa??? tak yah la bagitau... tapi boleh dibanggakan la jugak... hohoho... 2nd game pon lucky gak. tapi tak sehebat 1st game tadi. shaza and yat pon bley tahan... hebat gak... what a lucky day! ^_^


penat bermain boling, we all layan karoks plak. tak main la karoks bilik ni... layan karoks jamban je... hehehe.. sorang nyanyi 5 lagu... tapi rasa cam tak puas lagi... tambah lagi 2 lagu... tu pon rasa cam tak puas lagi. hahaha... sudah2 la tu kan. mula la tu, lupa daratan... eish2.....


then, baru teringat. tak semayang asar lagi. eish2... memula ingat nak balik je terus. semayang kat umah. but then, pikir2 balik, baik semayang kat sini dlu. pastu leh terus gi makan. ok, baiklah. pergi solat dlu. nanti kalo dalam perjalanan, jadi pape. haa, kan dah nyesal. ok, fine. terus gi solat dulu. alang2 solat asar, tunggu sampai maghrib terus. kan senang. time kat surau, leh plak terserempak dengan junior saujanarian. diorang plak kata, malam nanti nak main boling ngan cik raz. our ex-penasihat kelab ronggeng. ngehehehe.. kitorang ni pon, rasa cam nak join skali. padahal tadi dah main 2 game. dah beria2 lepas semayang, nak makan and terus balik. hohoho...


malam tu, kitorang main boling lagi skali. tapi kali ni layan 1 game je. sebab masing2 dah penat. aku, shaza and yat 1 team. and lagi 1 team di lead oleh cik raz ada 4 orang. game aku kali ni sangat terokkk! tak sampai 100 points pon. ceisss.. ni mungkin sebab tak pakai lucky ball tadi. ok, takpe2, aku anggap, mungkin takde rezeki malam ni...(tak dapat menerima kekalahan). game malam tu, dimenangi oleh shaza, yat and cik raz. aku? tak yah cakap. wat malu je. cehhhh... sudahhhh! >_<


okla, dah takde apa nak citer. itu je. kesimpulannya, arini sangat penat meronggeng. tapi best la! dah lama tak berjoli and berlibur. hehehe.. okla, dah nak tido ni. mata pon sipi2 je bukak ni. ngantok sangat. till next post... daaaaa!!!



p/s: kak raha, tanks 4 da gift... comeylll ^_^

mari menjawab tag cik liani!

The RULES:

Bold the statements that are true to you. 

Italic the statements that you WISH are true. 
Leave the Fibs alone. 
Then, stab 5 ladies to do the same test.

The LIST to Bold/Italic/Just-let-it-be:

I miss somebody right now.
I don’t watch TV these days.
I own lots of magazines.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I want to cut my hair.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernailseyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I'm happily married
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends’s ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I’m obsessed with guys (on TV).
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument (masa primary skool dlu kot).
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pickup things with my toes I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.^_^
I am an adrenaline junkie.

5 lucky ladies;

• siti balkhis
• shaza housmate
• ann-chan!
• hani syahida
• put jr bio
  

interview fellowship-DONE!

alhamdulilah... selesai sudah acara interview fellowship usm tadi. (macam acara sukan plak) perasaan saya tika dan saat ni?? mestila sangat gembira! hohohoho... tapi hakikatnya, dalam hati ni... sangat la kecewa dan unsatisfied... hurmmmm....


bangun pagi2 tadi, dah mula rasa cuak. omaigod!! nak cakap apa la interview nanti. for your information, this is my first time kot nak pergi interview. huhu. memang rasa sangat cuak. pagi tu aku lepak kat lab jap. hafal skrip apa2 yang patot. agak2 dah nak dekat pukul 9.30, baru pergi bilik meeting kat UPKV bio school. time tu dah agak ramai la. tengok list name lebey kurang 30 orang yang akan di interview nanti. and guess what? i'm the last person yang nak kena interview nanti ceh.... ni mesti sebab kes nama aku tercicir aritu. huhu.. apa2 pon, nasib baik la nama ada daripada takde kan...


so sementara nak tunggu turn aku, orang yang ke-30, sepatutnya pukul 2.20pm, so, kitorang lepak jela kat bilik yang disediakan. semua pon tunggu je kat situ. masing2 tengah cuak and hafal skrip. lepas sorang, sorang keluar. aku, farah, jue, balkhis and hadi lepak sama2 sambil prektis soalan yang akan ditanya interviewer. sampai satu tahap rasa cam dah malas nak pikir. ape nak jadi lantak la... dah penat menunggu. perot pon dah lapar ni.....


tetiba dalam pukul 1 petang, interviewer keluar and suruh we all rehat and makan2 dlu. tinggal lagi 5-6 orang camtu yang tinggal. erm, ikotkan tak lalu nak makan. tapi perut memang tengah lapar. kang takde energy nak cakap plak. memang tak lalu nak makan, sampai abes jugak la 1 mangkuk laksa and sandwich tuna tadi. hahaha.. (punyala takde selera ek?) tadi punya la bersemangat menghafal skrip, pastu bila lunch break, dah lupa balik nak cakap skrip apa. huhuhu... sepatutnya turn aku pukul 2.20pm, tapi sebab dah ada lunch break, so kena postpon lambat sket.

2nd session ni, tinggal lagi 6 orang. sya, hadi, fifi, balkhis, bukan-budak-bio-jadi-tak-kenal, jue and me. fuhhhh... makin nak masuk, jadi makin nervous. last2 tinggal aku, balkhis dengan hadi. jue tengah di interview. balkhis ngan hadi dah sudah. so diorang relax dah. nampak macam diorang hepi je. mesti bley jawab tadi. aku ni, dalam hati dah macam gunung berapi tsunami suma ada. tak tenteram. risau and nervous giler. bak kata hadi, balkhis and member2 yang lain, diorang cakap, basically diorang nak tau pasal projek kita. apa yang kita dah buat. progress camna and sanggup tak kalo disuruh mengajar nanti? owh... kebanyakkan soalan diorang recycle balik. so, aku sempat la nak prepare apa2 yang berkaitan....

alamak, jue dah keluar. now, it'm my turn plak. berdebar2....ok2, cool je... erm, ada 4 orang interviewer. semua ni of cos lecturers from bio school jugak. tapi diorang tak kenal aku, sebab aku tak pernah ada lecture ngan diorang. ok, abaikan isi tak penting. apa yang aku nak bagitau, memula masuk, aku dah rasa ok. relax sket. sebab ada sorang lecturer ni layan aku sempoi je. siap cakap BM lagi. aku pon belasah la sembang dalam BM. hahaha.. pastu bila ada sorang lecturer ni tanya balik dalam BI, so then i have to speak english la. hohoho. overall, diorang banyak tanya pasal projek aku, camna progress, kenapa aku pilih projek ni, expected result, and macam2 pasal projek. aku pon tak ingat entah apa yang aku jawab. apa yang diorang tanya pandai2 la aku goreng. hohoho. pastu bila dah puas tanya pasal projek, diorang tanya plak. "kalo diberi choice untuk mengajar, nak ajar subjek apa?" aku jawab la "subjek2 biotech-related. sebab saya major in biotech". but then diorang cakap, "sebab biotech dah ramai, so kena plih other subject. what subject u prefer??" adoiiii.... "errr... microbe???" then diorang ask lagi. "what type of microbe?" ahhh...sudah.....mana la aku tau. belasah jela."errr...molecular, soil...." pastu ada sorang tu tanya, "kalo ajar biostat boleh?" aku pon dengan yakinnya jawab dengan ekspresi muka, "aaa.....(muka tak sudi)"....padahal memang aku tak suka pon. seyes. aku score C+ untuk paper ni. hahaha.. lecturer tu paham la kot. dia tanya balik, "owh, tak berminat ek???". so dengan yakinnya aku pon jawab, "erm,actually saya memang tak berapa minat sangat biostat ni. sebab saya kurenggg sket yang banyak calculation, kira2....." lepas je aku jawab camtu, aku rasa cam nak tampar je mulut aku laju-laju. apasal terlebih jujur sangat ni???!!! "tadi kamu cakap nak ajar microbe soil, tapi subjek tu ada jugak calculation. kamu nak kena kira pH, kandungan bla...bla...bla....nanti kamu kena belajar pasal chemistry". "owh, by the way, for my project, i also will work on biochemistry. so i think, it will helps..." "no...biochemistry is not the same as chemistry... bla...bla...bla..." actually aku tak faham pon apa yang diorang cakap. sebab aku tak pernah amik subject tu. mana la aku nak tau kan. aku pon main badul bedal je jawab. adehhhh.... sebab jawapan kejujuran aku tadi, rasa macam dah spoil kan interview aku sume ni. ahhhh... tak suka!!! ingatkan diorang ada nak tanya apa2 lagi, tapi diorang dah takde apa nak tanya. aku dengan rasminya jadi candidate penutup untuk interview session kali ni....


arghhh... aku tak puas ati dengan interview tadi!!! rasa macam nak buat lagi sekali je... nak jawab betol2... hukhukhuk... lepas keluar dari bilik interview tu, baru la aku pikir,"eish...patot jawab camni kalo diorang tanya pasal ni..." adooooiii... stressss betol.... takot sangat kalo tak dapat fellowship usm ni.. saya mahu! saya mahu!!! hopefully la ada rezeki untuk semua orang. amin....amin....amin.....



p/s: berdoa dan bertawakal.... insyaallah....