regarding to my previous post, i did mention how confusing i am to publish my story. but still, i can't decide whether to publish it or not. thanks for those who gave me suggestions and advices. i know, this is my blog. afterall it's up to me if i want to publish it or not. ok, fine then. i'm not going to publish it since i have to "menjaga hati dan perasaan mereka". so, i should just let the hatred buried deep inside my heart with no one knowsthe truth about it and how i feel inside.. arghhh... it's so damn hurt!!!!